Had my 2 kiddos at 29 and 30 and have somehow found my inner "BEASTY" again. Its fun b/c as I look back I have countless road races mostly of the half marathon variety but a few marathons in there as well, a few tough mudders, a couple random silly races and bunch of triathlons and my somewhat newer vegetarian style. Mind you, I am not collecting hardware at these races, but it is a reminder that I am still really just 20 in my head w/ a few more crows feet and stretch marks and that I still will really do anything for a tshirt-- seriously, almost anything:) Not saying much for my fashion sense but whatever-- that actually has not changed 1 bit this decade (still non-existent).
So I am grateful that I am still healthy enough to do all this crazy shit, because each year that ticks by you are reminded by losing someone you love that nothing is guaranteed. But I will say here that its GUARANTEED that if I am able to still work these meaty thighs and my ticker works well that you can bet the farm I will look for ways to continue challenge my physical self. Mostly b/c its super fun, the funny stories last for YEARS, and its my favorite kind of a date with Keith, but the side benefit is that it helps my mental self as well:) This has come in extremely handy with my ever mounting work demands.
And I will do whatever I can so my kids think its cool to be healthy and fit-- basically I will do anything so they don't think that "skinny fat" is ever cool and so they don't feel like they have to look at "hollywood" or ESPN for role models- everyone one knows most of those people are "shells" of human beings anyway.
So this upcoming bday also coincides with some soul searching- which is also intriguing b/c I seem to be the person that usually has it all "figured out." I have some absolutely insane stuff going on at work right now. Obviously I won't go into detail- but the moral of the story is that I am the most competitive person I know, and well others are not and thats a tough one when I am theoretically "in charge" of leading them. So that has caused some tension-- well a lot of tension and I am left wondering if this is what I really want do. So I am trying to embrace the possibility of a big change, but yet at the same time trying to figure it out. One of the things I like about my "core" (and trust me I am NOT talking about the way my abs look-- good grief!) is that I am not afraid to make mistakes and I am not afraid to fail- which is quite liberating when you work in an environment where you make a lot of decisions all the time. I am not afraid to go out on a risk curve to try something unique. What's interesting now though is that I am left wondering how much risk can I take with my 2 tiny humans counting on me....hmmm...tough one...
The great news is that I am super "scrappy" (just another really stellar adjective I use to describe myself)- so I am sure that I can make something happen before something is forced to "happen" TO me. But it is a unique time b/c quite frankly I have gotten quite comfortable (from a security standpoint) with my work and to think of possibly recreating a "brand" doing something entirely different, while exhilarating, is a little daunting as well-- which is probably an adjective that I would have NEVER used in my 20s-- so apparently I have used a few more brain cells this decade too- ha ha! Either way, I am sure it will work out-- things always do--
And speaking of working out....had a not so stellar one today...literally fell on my face doing pushups at around the 5th round... which is always HOT.
I am planning on enjoying my day tomorrow--not entirely sure what I will do. Keith is away so that's a bummer- but I am taking our most amazing dog to take his therapy dog "test" tomorrow. We have been going to classes to become a pet therapy team so that is super exciting! Well I guess I am also being "tested" so hope I can perform on command without treats:) Hmmm... that will be a toughie. We will go to children's hospitals to do some "cheering up" and also "work" in a few schools to help support children that are learning how to read. So we are excited. Keith is most excited that he gets to wear a "working dog vest"- its the little things really.
Make it a great week for yourself and thanks for reading/listening:)
The 35 year old DB